The Experience of Malign Entities

Usually I am not one to attach much weight to stories of demons, or supernatural evil. However I feel it is my duty to describe an event that happened to me. Even though I don't understand it, I shall just relate the experience. My experience may, of course be an invention of my own mind, but it felt and sounded very real.

What encouraged me to write about this was when I discovered some videos on YouTube (shown below) that describe exactly the same kind of experience.

Any way, here is what happened to me; interpret it as you will.
 

It was early afternoon, and I was laying on my bed, wide awake, thinking about life. I felt sad and depressed, very low in spirit, almost like my life was ebbing away. In fact my body felt like a great motor that had been switched off and was slowly idling down. It was at this point that I suddenly sensed a presence in the room. It appeared as a fuzzy patch of air located to the right side of my head. It looked like a shimmer of static, a distortion of the air around it - a bit like a mirage in a hot desert.

Then out of this patch of static air a voice suddenly spoke. It sounded strained and harsh - as if speaking with difficulty and force. Bizarrely, it gasped "Gabriel is the name of the one who sent me to possess you".

I was really taken by surprise. In fact I was astonished. But I also felt afraid. I was having a very strange and very new experience, but I knew I had to do something. Being possessed did not sound good, and the tone of voice did not sound benevolent. The name Gabriel was familiar to me - a Biblical name (the name of an arch angel) but this did not feel good. So I decided to say a prayer. It seemed the best fall-back, to call out to God.

That was when I found out that I was completely paralysed -  completely rooted to the spot. I could not move my arms or legs. This could have been due to total fear, but this too took me by surprise. I tried to say "Jesus", but my voice was paralysed. I struggled to form each letter, each syllable with my mouth and force it out of my throat with all my concentration. And slowly my throat loosened and I began to pray "Jesus help me.......In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost" etc. I still had my doubts about religion at the time, but calling upon God seemed a wise thing to do in the circumstances. Anyway, it worked. The presence left as suddenly as it had come.

The presence had gone, but I lay there, still too scared to move or turn around for about 20 minutes. I just lay there, scanning the room and praying out loud.

Who knows what it was. It has never happened again since.

Anyway, there you have it. A really bizarre experience. I haven't thought much about it since. But then I just came across these YouTube Videos that describe an experience so similar to mine. So I feel it is my duty to write this page. Perhaps it will help someone.

This does not mean I believe in the Devil or Satan or any of that. If people have souls, then just as there are good people and bad people, it makes sense that there are good souls and bad souls. Since not all souls need necessarily be human, then it also makes sense that there may be good and  bad spirits. This, to me, is logical - simply based on the premise that there are souls.

However, whether any soul can be thought of as 100% bad is disputable. There is good and bad in all of us, so I am reluctant to categorise this experience as one of absolute evil. The spirit, if any, behind this experience, may itself have a good side. It is just that I have made a firm decision that I'd rather not try and find out. Just talking about this experience makes me very nervous.

Anyway, my researches over the years lead me to believe that there is an all powerful Creator - whom we can call upon if such experiences happen. Armed with the confidence of such a conviction, it is tempting to say "Bring it on". However, over confidence could be a mistake, since merely being in the presence of any kind of evil for a prolonged time can have a deleterious and corrupting effect - it gets "under your skin".... literally.  Thinking we are strong enough to get up close and examine it could be a mistake. We should not invite such experiences in or encourage them through our intellectual curiosity. Generally, if something tastes bad, stay away...You can spend your time in better ways..

When bad things happen to us they are either an accident of nature, or an intentional action of someone. If it is an intentional action, then the person causing the harm does so because they are either compelled from without by their own adverse circumstances, or compelled from within by their mental condition, or are under no compulsion but pure choice. Absolute evil, if it exists, would be the later. It would be where a person (or something else) causes intentional harm for no reason other than that they can. The only thing we know that is similar to this is a psychopath or sociopath.

The Bible talks about unconditional love, and assumes that we all have the capacity to love in that way. Such love is based on pure choice, pure volition. We choose to love rather than waiting for circumstances that allow us to love. If we do have such a capacity, it would be clouded by our physical needs and desires which make our love conditional and bound by our circumstances. It seems to make sense that a purely spiritual being, might be able to ascend to a state of unconditional love, since they are not bound by physical needs and desires.

Pure evil, if it exists at all, would be unconditional hate. If we have the capacity for unconditional love, then we should also have the capacity for unconditional hate. This is worth remembering. We can be very bad. But even more so a spiritual being that functions in a world of pure freedom and pure choice.

What I am saying is, in the spiritual dimension, unconditional love is more possible because it is less bound by finite needs and desires. Similarly unconditional hate might be more possible too. So, there may be such a thing as absolute evil after all. Both unconditional love and unconditional hate are purely spiritual in nature.